before i start to relate to you whatever that's on my mind..
ten, Ten, TEN. JUST TEN DAYS TO START OF JC LIFE
no, im so not pulling my hair out due to stress and nervousness about jc life
in fact, it's the opposite, im actually looking forward so much to jc.
just that the fact that you have less days to play is rather depressing..

looking back, i felt that this holiday made me feel like a changed person.
i have no idea why, but yes, it makes me feel as if my world changed.
changed, for the better. and made my life so much complicated too.
but yes, the fact that i am seriously looking forward to school,
hmm, that implies that i feel that i have played enough, and hence,
i hereby say that i had enjoyed my holidays (Y)

this holiday, i've worked and at work i met an entire group of new people
(oh, side track, one of the swimmers gave me angbao today :D)
one of the reason that i enjoy myself there, is that the people are friendly.
i am rather amused, that i actually enjoy working as a lifeguard so much
though it wasnt as slack as i thought it'd be, but it really is good.
no plans to stop working, gonna continue working on weekends.

anyway, i kinda made a new realisation which made me love work more
there, by the pool. everyone strips. yes, you didnt read wrongly, STRIP
if you're working as a lifeguard, full time or part time,
once you put on the lifeguard uniform, you ARE a lifeguard.
but rather sadly too, i learnt that some lifeguards can be irresponsible. :/

if you're a swimmer, once you strip, no one knows who you are.
you can be a CEO, or probably just a housekeeper.
but once you strip, you're just equal with all other pool users.
you dont get benefits for being an CEO,
you dont get disadvantages for being a housekeeper.
simple as ABC, you are all equal in the water (:

been listening to loads of new songs recently, hmm mostly english
i realised, that after all that i went through, those ups and downs.
i actually can FEEL those songs. really. they affect my emotions actually
and what i think about the lyrics of a song, reflects how i view things
i remember scoffing at the song "perfect two". yes,
im not saying the song isnt good, i just cant think positively about 'love'

went to childcare quite a few times this holiday too.
my kayla really sleeps so soundly, but i swear she has attitude.
been going all noisy with the childcare kids, been playing games with them
i really love them, not for the attention they give.
just like what cher says, they dont judge you. (:
it makes me feel at home there too, feeling as if a giant there actually
those innocent eyes and immature thoughts makes my day ^^

if you ask who i went out with the most this holiday, it's LEWIS.
he's a primary school friend actually, but i only got close with him recently.
yes, nice to bully, but a totally nice person to have around.
(devy, im praising you, you gotta be so touched that you're crying okay!)
if you ask who is the most interesting person i knew this holiday. DESMOND
this guy, i swear his life stories really too exaggerating to be true.


i really like to say 'thank you' to every friend i have,
especially those that i contacted/met up with this holiday
because without you all, this holiday wouldnt be so good.


this holiday, i saw how nice it was to be taken care of
this holiday, i saw how innocent a person my age can be
this holiday, i saw how fragile a boy-girl relationship can be
this holiday, i saw, i learnt, i realised, i matured, i grew.

I FINALLY FEEL LIKE A SIXTEEN YEAR OLD TEENAGER ^^


nights people (: