been feeling so messed up deep down inside recently,
so i shall just give myself all the way till monday to sort myself out.
i have tonight, since i cant talk on the phone due to reasons
and i have full shift tomorrow, have all the time in the world to ponder.

hmm.
i guess, that's the way things should be.
it's not about whether you know what sort of person i am previously
it is about who i am, and what i do, right from this point of time.
yeah, so perhaps some days down the road, when it all is better,
i'd consider opening up and telling you about all these crazy stuff.


no, dont take such a big step forward, dont come closer.
because you'll mess me up and make me feel so suffocated
sorry,